Now I am not without empathy for the fact that she loved her cat, he was a big part of her life for about eight years. But to even compare losing a cat or pet to what it would be like to lose a child is just not appropriate. This, coming from a woman who has no children, is especially wrong. There is no comparison. (Took a month or so, but she is now completely over it. I am not sure people can get over the death of their child so easily.)

I had a cat before I had my first child. This cat was loved, it was “our baby.” As soon as my human baby was born, however, I saw the difference. A cat can be put to sleep when it is suffering physical problems you can’t afford surgery for. Can you do that with a child? Now I understand these people usually don’t have children and don’t understand the kind of love parents have for their children, but even so, I can’t imagine not seeing the difference.

A pet is a pet. We buy them or get them free to be our little companions. Some people are more involved, some people are less. As long as you treat your pet humanely, feed and take care of them as you should, who is to judge how you relate with them? The idea of owning an animal to begin with is such a strange thing anyway. So when another person I know judges the living conditions of my animal pets compared to hers, I get even more irritated.

For example, one person I know has three large dogs who live both in and out of her house. They sleep in her room at night, sometimes on the bed. I know someone who has a small dog who lives in his house, which stinks tremendously. He lets this dog lick his toes because it feels good and he thinks it’s cute. The other woman with the cat used to let her cat walk around in the house, and I would watch the cat use the cat litter box located in the kitchen to take a s**t and then proceed to jump up onto the kitchen counter to curl up and take a nap next to the bowl of fruit. There was always fur all over the place, on every piece of furniture, and all over my clothing when I left. I find that quite disgusting.

However, I have been told by these people on different occasions that they find it sad that my poor dogs (who are animals) have to be mostly outside (they sleep in a small utility room at night and have access to it in daytime) and that my cat has to live outside (as my son suffers from allergies discovered after we had already had the cat several years). I choose my son’s well-being over the cats in a heartbeat, but I do make sure the cat is cared for, warm and safe. He is an animal, though, and enjoys hunting and being outside, it is in his nature. I have seen cats locked up inside and I personally find that wrong, cats stare out the window longing to go outside and chase butterflies and stalk tiny prey through the grass. They seem to go senile when stuck inside with no access to the outdoors.

Dogs are not my priority. I care for them. I think they are happy and carefree outside. They play together, they have a huge yard to run around in and they roll around in the dirt. I don’t feel comfortable having them traipse in dirt bringing in all kinds of foreign matter from the yard into our house where my children are sitting on the floor playing.

My sister, the dog owner, talks incessantly about her dogs. The infrequent calls we have are taken up by conversation about her dogs, what she has been training them to do lately, how much she loves them, what she bought for them, and then subtly remarks how I should train my dogs this way or that. I have noticed that conversations with my mother have even been consumed by talk about these dogs! She has been the caretaker of the dogs on numerous occasions when my sister goes on vacation. She talks about the dogs, how good and trained they are (hinting at comparing them to my poor, unruly dogs who have to live outside and who I have not forced to learn how to roll over on command for a little treat) and even calls them her “grandkids,” when in fact, she never comes to offer her caretaker services to her real human grandchildren. I find it so annoying discussing dogs the entire conversation without so much as a question about my real kids. It is very strange.

The fact is, dogs are easier than children, they love you unconditionally. You have no major decisions to make about their day-to-day lives, except maybe when a major healthcare concern comes up, and then you can decide to pay lots of money to fix it or just put them to sleep – and that usually all depends on your current financial situation. Whereas, if you have the same situation with a child, you take care of it no matter what, beg, borrow or steal.

Pet owners have different beliefs and styles in how they decide to relate with their pets. Some buy dogs just for protection (including policemen) and the dogs are used only for that reason, living in a junk yard or fenced area. They have a right to own these dogs for this reason if they wish, as long as they care for them providing food and shelter. People have a right to treat their dogs like their kids as well. They can train them to walk through tunnels and race other dogs around tracks, dress them and primp them like phoo phoo little creatures, let them lick their mouths and toes, and sleep in their bed if they wish (ewwwwww!), but don’t pass judgment on how I choose to deal with my pets and I won’t either. And don’t tell me your dogs or cats are in any way loved at the same level as my kids or I’ll post a very irritated rant about it.

I do not claim to be a liberal, or anything for that matter. I prefer not to name myself when it comes to politics as my voting choices are based on the individual. But even I become offended for anyone who does call themselves a liberal by her often so ridiculous remarks about liberals. I am not sure about everyone, but I can guess that many liberals are at varying degrees of intensity, and pick and choose matters of importance to them. I, for one, would not ever undergo an abortion as I love children and would always welcome a new child into my life, and thankfully, at the current time, I have the right to decide. But with people like this in the world assuming it is okay to decide for other people what is such a personal and huge female decision, we are all in danger.

My argument is for the idea that no government should have the right to make that decision for an individual, especially when is largely based on religious beliefs. When anyone argues that point religiously, I will fight it just to prevent some pompous group who thinks they have the answers (Christianity) from making my decisions for me.

Secondly, I am not a “tree hugger” who would like non-flushable toilets, but I am for the idea of people being aware of environmental problems and everyone generally leaning toward ways to make the earth a nice place for our children to live in generations to come. That can only be positive, as everyone would like to breathe clean air and enjoy a healthy environment.

She seems to think that if you are a liberal, you are therefore in agreement with every topic she discusses (and everything she is not in agreement with).

Throughout this book, this woman seems to have the arrogant air that she knows all, and anyone who is not in her same political/religious group doesn’t (and is a complete idiot). It is so insulting to so many people and she doesn’t seem to care that being hateful and insulting is not a very so-called “Christian” way to be (or human I believe, because really it just takes a human compassion to know one should not talk that way about another).

She is successful at what it seems she is trying to do – which is to get publicity and make herself known, but it saddens me that people are fans of hers and don’t see the hate she is contributing to all of our short lives here on earth together.

I am sure that this post may cause more people to read her book, which is not my intent, but I am so glad I did not purchase the book as I do not feel like contributing to her financial success that is a result of the hate she spreads.

Today I was at an office shop doing some printing of documents for my business. At a copier was a nice woman with long gray hair. Although she was approximately 20 years older than me, I often feel an instant kinship with women with long gray hair, as if they are in the same long-hair family as me. I instantly think (maybe mistakenly or perhaps judgmentally?) that they were hippies in their younger days and refuse to cut their hair like most older women do for some reason. I for one, will not cut my long hair just because I grow older. I absolutely love to see beautiful long gray hair on a woman.

Anyway, in a long wait for my printing to finish, we began talking. We had a very friendly conversation about my business and my relocating to the area. She told me she knew a girl in the same profession, whom I would get along with great. She would love to introduce us. We talked and talked and I felt a great warm feeling about this person, as if we were instant friends.

About 20 minutes into the conversation, she asks me if I would like to see what she is doing there (what she is printing). Of course I walk over to see and she begins the next sentence with, “Are you a Christian? – I hope?” “Nope. But I would still like to see what you are doing.” Talk about an uneasy feeling in the warm conversation, which instantly turned negative and uncomfortable by that rude and so commonly asked question.

Our conversation pretty much ended at that point. We had nothing more to say to each other. She showed me the stuff she was doing, printing up religious booklets teaching about god. She asked me if I wanted one, and I told her I didn’t think she should waste her hard work on me, I knew I would not be interested in reading it. (I know all I need to know about the Christian religion, thank you very much.)

So there goes another could be nice relationship down the drain because of religion.

First of all, I find the question rude and completely private. To me, it is a philosophical question, the question of life, our souls, why we are here and where we may end up after death. Very complicated in its unknown answer and cannot be answered in a simple “yes” or “no” or named in a certain one religion. I do not call myself any religion, I do not call myself an atheist, as that subscribes to the same name application as do all religions. I am quite spiritual and honestly, that is nobody’s business!

But for some reason, with that imposed question about my personal beliefs about life and souls, I felt a couple of instant reactions: 1) Defensiveness and 2) rage/anger.

First, why do I feel the need to explain myself to this stranger? I felt I needed to explain why I am not a Christian. I felt she was wondering, well then, what are you? I wondered if she thought, therefore, that I am a satanist? Should I have said I am Buddhist, just to provide her a quick answer? However, I am not Buddhist, and I don’t really lie, so that would not have worked for me. It would have been easier to just lie and say I was Christian. We could have kept our nice sweet conversation going and she may actually have introduced me to her friend she thought I would get along with so well (I have yet to be introduced, by the way). But I don’t lie to people. I am an honest, caring, loving person. I care about everyone in the world. I do not judge people. I do things for others. I say hello to strangers on the street. I am compassionate. I never cuss, I have never fought with another person, I donate to charities, I want peace in the world. I am genuinely a good soul if I do say so myself.

I felt I needed to provide her an explanation. I almost began to reply “but I am spiritual” or something, but stopped myself, realizing it is not really necessary or her business. Why do I feel I need to explain myself to people who so rudely impose their view on others? I don’t feel it is appropriate to do that. There is nothing that actually brings out more anger in me than a person coming to my door in the middle of my work day, causing my dogs to bark fanatically and irritatingly, to try and impose their religious views on me.

Angers and enrages me! I can see why most all of the wars of the world are caused by religion! It really brings out some serious anger in an otherwise nonviolent-type person. After someone comes to my door and I have to shoo them away with some excuse (and more recently some angry speeches), I spend hours discussing it with my husband! They have interrupted my day, I can’t go back to work because I am furious, and I have to discuss why I can be so rude to a nice young child of 18 sometimes who I don’t even know, just because they come to my door like that? I am never mean to a person like that! But lately I can be pretty mean and say something rude to a stranger because I have been trying to train myself to be honest rather than saying something that will give the person the idea that they can come back another time. I want them to get the idea that they are not welcome if they are going to try and impose their views on an adult who has spent a large amount of time giving serious thought to the subject, definitely more time than they have it appears. Because if you give the subject some serious thought, a rational person most definitely should come to the same conclusions as I. (If not there yet, then you haven’t given it enough rational thought.)

See how the subject brings out some negative features of my humanity? I suddenly become judgmental – I obviously think that I must be smarter than the Christians because I know that I don’t know. I think that I am more caring and thoughtful than the Christians, because I see day in and day out so-called Christians doing very mean things. I have seen some serious racism in the middle parts of this country by “Christian” people who are living in the “bible belt.” What? It doesn’t make sense. I have seen some terrible things come out of “Christian” people, much worse than I could ever do. But suddenly, when the subject presents itself, I can easily be turned more rude than I ever am just because it angers me so.

I spent my childhood going to church – I am sure because my parents felt it was their social responsibility to make sure we belonged to a church. They often didn’t accompany us, just sent us to Sunday school, probably to have some time to themselves.

I spent much of my young motherhood in uncertainty as to whether I should be making sure my young child was involved in a church. This was due to the upbringing which teaches you that once you know about god and religion, and refuse it, you are definitely in trouble. My Christian sister has at one time told my teenage son that she was worried that since he knew about Christianity and chose not to believe it, he would go to hell. But who told him about it? Her (to my utter anger)! So she imposed this fear onto him. Had she not said that, as per the Christian rule, he would have never known and, therefore, would have been accepted into their heaven because he was unaware and a good person. Oh darn! Now it is too late, he is doomed. Even though he is an awesome thoughtful, caring and compassionate teenager, he is doomed. “God” won’t accept him and will leave this kind boy to burn in hell because he won’t give up his sense of logic, throw his intelligence in the trash, and start praying to the imaginary.

Defend my freedom to believe what I want. Angry at all those who impose on others.

There is so much more that could be said here, but as you can see once again, the subject takes me away from my real work to write this and relieve some of the anger it has caused me. I feel slightly better.

I still do think that the dad (or “Dorian”) had very intelligent ideas and was trying hard to raise his children in a happy healthy environment. Children thrive on activity like that. They are constantly wanting to play with others and their parents. I can’t imagine having nine children, especially a group of mostly rambunctious boys, all living in small camper without some serious discipline involved somehow to make sure and keep the peace within the family. In one part of the movie it is mentioned someone may have thrown mud or “started a fire” in the bathroom and needed discipline. Now I absolutely disagree with the oldest brother being given that responsibility. That is completely wrong and he should not have been told to do anything like that. He does not deserve the guilt he suffers now or the anger from his younger siblings from doing that as his father should never have made him responsible for that in the first place. But again, if you have a son who is starting a fire in the bathroom, there is some serious discipline that needs to be undertaken for that kind of behavior.

In such tight quarters, there may have been just some authority having to be asserted in just the fact that Dorian may have felt angry “vibes” coming from different children at different times that he had to keep control of, so as not to affect the rest of the children. Please show me an example of a large household of nine children, mostly boys, in which all of them have grown up completely mentally healthy, happy and prosperous. I think it would be difficult to find!

I was touched to see two of the older men working in the surf camp sitting so closely together while talking to the cameraman. How often do you see such closeness and togetherness between any brothers?

I was angered by the fact that one clip from the movie was left out and was seen only in the extras on the DVD. This is of Adam talking about their childhood and how children from “Anytown” America are having very similar problems as they are, whether or not they were raised in a “regular” home or not. This is very true and should have been left in the movie. This was a comment both my husband and I made to each other before we watched the extras and so I was glad to see that he was very aware of that fact himself. I myself know plenty of people who were raised in nice large American homes with all of the luxuries of current American society, with both parents in the home, who are perfectly discontent and went through high school drinking alcohol and taking drugs. I am a prime example of that myself actually. In a small trailer in constant contact with your parents, there definitely is more supervision even with children running around during the day. It is the working family with both parents gone from the home all day long that usually has problems with discipline and monitoring their child’s activity.

I do think that when the kids became older, a larger RV was in order. It is difficult to become a teenager as it is, and space is often needed as well as some privacy while you are trying to figure yourself out. I do agree with the boys that it would have been nice if they had some privacy so as not to experience their father’s healthy sexuality while needing to deal with their own growing needs.

However, I have to say I love the relationship between Juliette and Dorian and I think they are a perfect example of “soul mates.” Actually, I consider Juliette to be the heroine here and major source of love and peace in the family. Although dad had the ideas and kept the rule system it seems, Juliette seemed to be the one who kept the love, music and cuddling going in the family. I think she is awesome! – the ultimate in mother and wife. Many mothers would be drinking themselves silly (or rather, popping little yellow pills these days) with eight boys running around a full-sized house, much less a small camper.

I applaud this woman and her compassion and I lost it completely with tears rolling down my face when she was hugging her last of the nine children (Israel) who finally made it to the family gathering, she was so full of relief and comfort to have all of her children once again surrounding her. I know that feeling and I only have two!

What is sad is that Dorian’s wish to keep his family together was not successful in that they did part ways and have not maintained the togetherness ….

I found it irritating and generally unthoughtful that Dorian felt it was okay to talk about his education and yet not give them any, stating he wished they knew the difference between being wise and education, yet they didn’t have the opportunity to experience one of those so how are they to make that determination? Having made that decision for his family, he should have stood firm on his ideas about education and not boasted about his own education to them or anyone.

Isn’t it funny how there is always a sister (or some similar family member) who feels it necessary to give her input on how wrong your ways are and how she would do things correctly? I find Dorian’s sister’s opinions similarly obnoxious as instead of respecting her family member’s parenting decisions, she continually gives her own opinions on how they should have been raised and assumes she is right (or am I mixing in my own family experiences here?). That seems to be a common family dynamic.

I found there was discrepancy between his philosophy and his religious practices, but I just don’t have time for that now. That will have to be a whole new topic of discussion.

Being a fellow beach-loving surfer, I was drawn to this idea and felt an instant understanding and kinship with this man who went with his convictions and raised his family how he saw fit, much to the dismay and probable disgust of the general public. Jonathan Paskowitz comes across on this interview as a very happy, nice and capable man. He seems to be happy with his life and how he was raised. However, when I later searched for signs of when this movie would be released, I found several comments regarding the movie even before it was out – comments which were, of course, the usual criticisms people seem to feel the need to give when a person chooses parenting which is out of the “norm” for general America.

For some reason, I find people tend to provide their opinion of how children should be raised regardless of the fact that no one seems to have perfected this craft. Many people provide opinions even when they have no children of their own. It is very easy to do this when you have not gone through the ups and downs of raising kids, learned the behavioral dynamics of the complicated relationships between parents and their own children as opposed to these same children and other unrelated adults.

Personally, I found that this man’s ideas were very intelligent. Keep in mind, I have not yet seen this movie. I am only going on what I heard from the interview. The movie is currently in my Netflix queue and I am anxiously awaiting its delivery.

I believe that people have, to date, not been totally successful in raising children within the public school system. I also believe the learning process is more complicated and requires individual attention. I do not think what is available in the public school system today is able to accommodate all of the intricacies of child development at each age and a more individualized approach is essential for some children. This man had a very large family and the children were able to play and socialize with each other.  He knew each of his children well and was able to teach them directly based on their abilities. They learned the ways of nature, love and life by surfing and swimming in the ocean, which is a very healthy and wonderful lesson in life. They learned to exist on just the basics, not needed all of the extra gadgets people have to have these days.

By surfing, you learn the power of the ocean waves, all of your senses are stimulated, you get to enjoy the absolute beauty of nature at its finest. Surfing makes you forget your worries and enjoy the moment. It is a healthy lifestyle with exercise which is also fun.

These children lived in a small camper with their entire family  (possibly a little too cramped for their tastes), but learned how to live closely together similar to how people lived in teepees - cozy with the ultimate display of family togetherness. The parents were obviously close and loved each other and the children were able to see that openly and honestly.  

I can’t wait to see this movie. I am hoping that I am not disappointed and that these children are happy adults raising their children in a similar manner and that many people learn from this movie. I will be sad if this movie ends up showing that this life lead to dysfunctional adults. I am hoping that this movie backs up my thoughts that his was a good idea.

I will post a follow up after I have seen the movie!

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My most recent experience was waking one morning to my husband telling my young child about the squirrel he had been observing next to our campsite this morning who seemed to have been hurt and was obviously in pain, probably dying.  I could hear the concern in my child’s voice and she was wondering how to care for this squirrel, hoping to help it in some way.

A while later, a mother and her daughter walked by and discussed the dying squirrel, the girl displayed some care, stating she might want to bury the squirrel.

Moments after this, a younger sister of this family walked up with a stick to poke and prod this hurt squirrel. She was about six years old and this seems to be a common behavior between children and dead animals. However, her mother scolded her and told her the squirrel was dirty and do not touch.

This girl returned a while later with a boy a few years older, both with their necessary sticks. They began poking and prodding, turning the squirrel over, the boy ready to reach out and grab the squirrel. As the squirrel was not yet dead, and obviously in much pain, I felt it necessary to say something to help the poor squirrel die in peace. I also found it difficult to watch as this was directly in front of our campsite where my young son was viewing this behavior as well. I asked could the children leave the poor squirrel alone because he was sick and in pain, it probably didn’t feel good for him to be poked at with a stick.

The boy found it very difficult to listen to us. He returned several times with more poking attempts. His mother scolded him to wash his hands, do not touch. There was no mention of the squirrel in pain, however. Just the basic worry about the boy getting disease or dirty from the animal.

After several attempts, we could no longer take watching this so my husband gave a more stern scolding to the child telling him to leave the squirrel alone.  He must have informed his family of this as the boy returned with a teenaged sister, her stick, and another older girl (possibly his mother, although she looked about 22, so I am unsure) and her stick. They seemed to feel a need to insert their authority over their boy’s behavior and obviously did not appreciate us telling him anything. So the teenager began poking the squirrel and picked it up by its arm, letting it hang four feet above the ground. He was still alive mind you, but barely hanging on.  I could not keep quiet and had to say something to this girl. I asked her “don’t you care that this squirrel is hurt and is dying?” She said, “I have no heart.”  My husband told them that he hoped they would get the privilege of having a dying squirrel in front of their campsite next time so that they can enjoy poking it and stabbing it to death all they want! That eventually sent them away.

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I found it deeply disturbing and could not get past my anger about this for several hours. I wondered  – why is the family there? What made them choose a camping vacation if they do not appreciate nature?

I understand that many people see squirrels as rodents, or do not care about animals in general in the same way as I do. I am not an overly fanatical animal lover and I do not belong to any activist groups. I do, however, respect nature and care deeply about the balance of nature and the gifts that mother nature provides. That is why I choose to camp for my vacations.

My frustration with this situation was this: This girl was a teenager. She should know right from wrong by this age and have some empathy for this living creature. Since she didn’t, it was a sad realization that there is nothing I can do to change it and that there are so many others who are the same as her. Her parents might also be the same and she probably learned from them everything she knows. Are there people like her everywhere? How will we ever learn to love and care for one another when there is this attitude and mindset in many of the teenagers growing up today? I know not all teenagers are like her, but I do know there are many. What does it take to teach the basic common value of caring and loving other living creatures if your parents don’t care about them?

This raises so many other questions and so many thoughts I will have to write about another day.

a squirrel